Saturday, March 27, 2010

I love small towns...

I'm sitting here in my living room about to watch a movie. I have the front door and the windows open as it is an absolutely gorgeous day out.

I heard a car honk. This happens often on our little street as we are close to a school and a back way around a busy street. This time though, that simple honk struck me differently than it normally does. Perhaps because of the doors being open and it feeling like summer, perhaps not. I'm not really sure.

This particular honk made me jump to the window to see who it was. I don't think I've done that in years. This was a regular occurrence growing up in a small town. When someone honked on your street it typically meant that a friend was driving by and the honk was to say hello.

I miss that.

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Surgery...I hope

For the longest time I've been contemplating breast reduction surgery. This past weekend I found out that my cousin's wife is scheduled to have the surgery on the 19th. I couldn't believe it. I'm so much bigger busted than her. It zapped me into high gear. I called my insurance and found that they actually cover the surgery as long as it is medically necessary and not just for cosmetic purposes. Next step - I scheduled an appointment with my doctor to see what she thought.

I had the appointment on Tuesday. She said that I am a very good candidate for the surgery, but...there are a couple of things she wants me to do first.

1. Physical therapy to heal the pain in my neck and back.
2. Lose weight.
3. Be done having children.

My thoughts on these 3 things.
1 - easy. I have my first appointment scheduled on the 23rd.
2 - hard. I'm visibly horrible at losing weight. I know in my head that I need to do it. I want to do it. There are so many benefits from losing the weight. It's such a struggle for me. It's always been a struggle for me. The only time it wasn't was when I was 22 - 24 years old and that was only because my job was the opposite of sedentary. I was on my feet 12 - 16 hours a day and so busy that I simply forgot about food. I wish I could be that busy again. Not on my feet the whole time, but busy. The irony is that I was working in food service during this time. Go figure.
3 - I understand the reasoning for this one. I mean my chest grew 3 cup sizes from being pregnant with Cooper. I better be able to lose some of that from the weight loss or I'm going to be seriously hurting with kid #2. Craig and I had been talking about when we want to start trying for #2 and we decided(prior to this doctor's visit) that we would start trying again in July. Provided Craig has a job again.

I know I was expecting a miracle when I walked in there. I was hoping the doctor would say something along the lines of "We can get you in next week." I know that this is something that will happen someday. I'm really hoping that in about a year and a half I will be having this surgery. In the mean time, I've really got to buckle down and get serious about getting in shape.

If you think about it, pray for me and my task ahead. I'll try to keep you posted on my progress and any future visits with the doctor.

Love to all!